With Covid now becoming less and less important in our lives because of all the vaccinations happening, this also means that social life is slowly coming back. We can all go back to our hobbies, to meeting friends out in the open again – our lives feel much more normal again (even though not completely yet, the danger is still not fully gone).
In the middle of all this a 22 year old girl is trying to find her way in this world. She’s moved to another country before the second covid wave hit again, which meant that she spent pretty much all of the time in the new country in lockdown – until the country startet to open up again a few months back. She thought, once everything went back to normal, life would be good again. She could do all the things she loved again, would finally find her place in this country. But that isn’t the case.
Instead, she’s been unhappy for weeks, even though she seems to have everything she needs. She has a good job, a study she likes, friends she can talk to and enough money to live a good live. But she still isn’t happy. It feels a lot like there is something missing – if only she knew what. That would already be one step closer to solving the problem. However – she’s got no clue. Sometimes she’s sad, sometimes she’s angry, but doesn’t know why.
This is starting to be really exhausting – all she wants to be is happy, and she would do anything to be it. But to be happy you first need to figure out what’s making you said. As it turns out, this is harder for her than she ever thought it would be.
She sort of thinks it’s because there’s never been anyone in her life that made her a priority, and still she doesn’t have anybody she can turn to that would just listen and tell her everything will be fine and hug her. She misses this special person to talk to, the person who would give just as much for her as she would for them. But also – how is she supposed to find this person if she can never be happy? Don’t only happy girls get a boyfriend?
So, the fact that she doesn’t get a boyfriend because she’s not always happy makes her even more sad and angry. And no matter what she does, she can’t change it, even though she really wants to. She will try everything to make herself happy. But she has no clue where she should start.
Soooo – back on track? Well, yes, but the track is wonky and the future is hidden in a big cloud of fog, so she has no idea where she is going and if there maybe is a hole in the ground that’s waiting for her to fall into it. The only thing she can do is trust that she will end up where she is supposed to be. But whatever it takes – she is not going to give up.